"It is not the end of the
physical body that should worry us. Rather, our concern must be to live while
we're alive - to release our inner selves from the spiritual death that comes
with living behind a facade designed to conform to external definitions of who
and what we are."
- Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
- Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
Sadhana means setting the mind
right so the light of God is seen directly.
– Paramhamsa Satyananda
Saraswati
I just had my 59th
birthday. Big deal, I know. However, I agree with the position that the
purpose of this life is to awaken to our true identity, to experience a unified
consciousness – “The” Unified Consciousness, aka “God.” The reason is that I have had some “tastes”
of that experience and I know that it makes all of our worldly concerns seem
absolutely trivial. I’m not talking
about world hunger, war, poverty, disease, human trafficking or any of the
other darkness in the world. I’m talking
about our ordinary ego-centric concerns for security, pleasure, personal
control, romance, even “righteousness.”
Aging can be used as a means
of gaining some perspective on one’s body and one’s life. Everything, even what we identify with as
ourselves, is a temporary manifestation of something “greater.” This body that I enjoy through the senses is
a transient phenomenon. In fact it is
constantly changing. We grow, develop,
reach our prime and then decay. But
“that” is not really who we are.
Underlying the surface of phenomena is the timeless, non-spatial essence
of our being; the inner witness. Who this
inner witness is, is not a question that can be answered through the ordinary
workings of our minds. It is not
material, not mental or emotional but it is always here, right now. It is
always present as the locus of experience.
This is the true essence of our being(s).
Sadhana, or “spiritual
practice” is any means that works to help us enter into our deeper
identity. I practice and teach hatha
yoga asana and pranayama, various meditation techniques and devotional song,
kirtan. Reading and contemplating
spiritual texts can also be a form of sadhana.
These all work well, especially in combination. But as I remind students, one’s practice must
be regular and consistent. Regular ongoing
sadhana enables us to de-condition ourselves, release toxic emotional energy
and false beliefs that we have accumulated as to who and what we are. It is work that we must do on ourselves and
there are no real shortcuts. However,
the work is not really all that painful or arduous; in fact it can and should
be joyous, at least more often than not.
With ongoing practice the
inner peace which is cultivated begins to grow.
However, it must be nurtured to some extent. I have found myself withdrawing from “normal”
situations and relationships because they do not serve it. Why stay attached to people and things that
distract me from bliss? Of course the
attachment is within me, the reaction is my own and no one and nothing is to
blame. However, loud music, violent media,
judgmental conversations, one-upmanship, gossip, etc. simply do not serve spiritual
practice; at least not for me. Any and
all situations and relationships reflect where I am attached or not. As Ram Das wisely puts it, “What you meet in
another being is the projection of your own level of evolution.” When we recognize and release our attachments
we can evolve further.
In the Dhammapada, Buddha
states, “Experiences are preceded by mind, led by mind, and produced by mind.” Sadhana is a means of purifying one’s mind. It is a means of bringing negative mental
patterns to light and letting them go, as well as cultivating and reinforcing
positive ones. When we let go of our
mental baggage we open space for the light of God. It is not a matter of judging whether something
is “good” or “bad,” but of letting go and trusting the “goodness” of our own
essential nature. When we truly
surrender in our practice we give up any and all expectations, desires,
fantasies, ideologies in order to enter into “reality.”
Growing older allows me to
let go of attachments, although I am hardly “liberated.” It also reminds that life is short and that
it is necessary to focus on what is essential.
Sadhana connects me with that even if I can’t truly define
what that is.